Sunday, 22 June 2014

Jersey Boys: Silence is not Golden in this case

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I don't usually do this. Everyone is entitled to their opinion, especially with film reviews as they're highly subjective. However when someone is incorrect, they're incorrect and I can prove it. Swearin' to God. I need to right a wrong, a wrong that is very close to my heart.

I've been a film reviewer so I kind of know what I'm talking about. I have done film reviews for my University newspaper, the Cambridge Film Festival (including interviewing the most important film director in Albania, but that's another excruciating story), websites such as Local Secrets and on community radio (Bums on Seats for Cambridge 105). I only gave up as it started to ruin my enjoyment of not just going to the cinema, but of watching films in general. I'm working my way back to it. Now I only go to the cinema when it warrants it, for valid 3D films, big tent pole releases and for films I just can't wait to see. Jersey Boys was an instance of the latter.

Jersey Boys
Jersey Boys is the story of Frankie Valli and The Four Seasons. I grew up on their music. My ears adored their music right from the first note. I used to sit as a child in front of my parents' stereo, cross-legged on the floor, wearing huge oversized bucket headphones that I had to hold to my ears as they were far too big, lost to the world. The dawn could go away for all I would care. I sat there for hours! Frankie's glorious voice washing over me, Nick Massi's bass voice making me laugh, the tunes sweeping me away and the lyrics, oh the lyrics. This music is the music of my childhood and I'd have "Can't Take My Eyes Off You" as my wedding song.


With this in mind, if there were anything wrong with the film, I'd be the first to pick up on it, with the music, the acting, the characterisation, the story and the singing, particularly the singing. I'm not the sort to blindly love anything. The sun ain't gonna shine on everything about anything. I saw the stage musical four years ago, on an icy December evening. Oh, what a night that was. So I'm in a good position, possibly a better position than most reviewers, to review Jersey Boys than any. Plus I wasn't feeling well and I've been waiting for this films for years, since the doorman at the Prince Edward Theatre mentioned that Martin Scorsese was in line to direct. So I was less inclined to be patient with any shortcomings, but in the perfect way that seems to happen when you're not feeling your best, you fall for something, someone hard. Jersey Boys is not perfect, nothing ever is, but it's still wonderful, a fact that the critics seem to have missed.

The London cast I saw
First to the downsides. In my opinion, the stage musical did a better job of making Tommy DeVito sympathetic, which is unusual as the film had more time and he was played by the only real film/TV actor in the quartet: Vincent Piazza. It might've been helped by the fact that the marvellous Jon Boydon played Tommy when I saw it on stage. Here he is with me looking like a silver star.

Me meeting Jon Boydon
The rest of the cast were great, including the only star Christopher Walken who is a self-confessed Frankie Valli fan and was clearly loving it. On stage, Tommy may have been the stand-out, on screen it was Erich Bergen as Bob Gaudio. He is someone to watch. Let's hang on to him. That is to take nothing away from the Frankies: Ryan Molloy on stage and John Lloyd Young on screen. The latter has been on Glee and has certainly graduated from that. They were nothing if not professional.

In the stage musical, after *SPOILER* Frankie's daughter dies, they used the beautiful song "Fallen Angel" which perfectly describes the emotion of the moment. However the film reprised the song Frankie sang to his daughter to get her to sleep. It made narrative sense, but I missed the inclusion of the song. "Rag Doll" only got a brief mention as well.

Lastly, there was no cameo for Oscar-winning actor Joe Pesci who as a young man was Tommy's dogsbody and introduced them to Bob Gaudio, who became their main songwriter. Ironically in later life, Tommy worked for Pesci in Las Vegas. He has a part in the film though. If Scorsese had made Jersey Boys, I expect Pesci would've got a bigger part and a definite cameo!

Joe Pesci with The Four Seasons
The reason why I'm writing this post is because of the majority of reviews, special mention goes to the exception the LA Times, mainly a BuzzFeed article from Alison Willmore (I have to name and shame her) and a two-star review from my beloved Times. Alison claims that Jersey Boys is a musical that doesn't care about music. This really got under my skin because on the contrary, the film and Eastwood obviously really care about the music. As Alison goes on to say, she wants a Mamma Mia style musical where the characters randomly burst into song for no reason, with big song and dance numbers. You want Mamma Mia? Well watch it again, or the soon-to-be-released Walking on Sunshine. This medley happens at the end in a glorious feel-good finale which harks back to the stage musical, reminiscent of a curtain call. But the point she misses about Jersey Boys is that it as much a biopic as a musical. Eastwood really cares about the music, grounding it in reality rather than trivialising it in the current trend of film musicals. The songs are naturally sung on stage, in the studio, impromptu on the street, down the phone to their producer and to the people in their lives. He puts the songs in context, sometimes giving you the story behind the lyrics; Jersey Boys is a biopic after all. The film and the musical aren't constructed around the songs, it is a biopic that includes their songs and is a musical in that sense. One of the most famous songs, "Sherry" is sung down a phone, but it is reprised later in a storming performance. The songs are woven into the narrative in a seamlessly intuitive way, not as an afterthought or a clumsy emotional bookmark.

Clint Eastwood with Frankie Valli
I for one am glad that they didn't go down the Grease angle, using it as a template. This would be entirely forgivable as Frankie Valli did sing the title track for the film. It could have been excruciating and that happy-go-lucky shallow feel doesn't lend itself to a story of the mob, fraud, betrayal, heartbreak, addiction and death. Jersey Boys is a true story of realistic people with real problems; nothing is manufactured.

One of the key problems as the critics see it is the narrative device of the characters speaking to the camera, narrating the film themselves, compounded by the fact that all but Tommy are stage actors taken direct from the stage musical. Rather than be a negative this actually becomes a positive. The stage actors know the material inside out, their parts are ingrained in them and they bring more naturalistic performances and addressing the audience adds much needed even laugh-out-loud humour (a Nick Massi ranting moment is a scene-stealer) and allows all the characters to have a voice rather than just the lead Frankie and the verbose Tommy. Gaudio's "Walk Like a Man" moment is quite brilliant.

Jersey Boys poster
For some reason, The Times reviewer Wendy Ide decides to criticise the singing, while admitting that John Lloyd Young, Tony award-winning on stage in the part of Frankie, is a "physical and vocal match" for Valli. Therefore criticising his voice makes no sense and belies the fact that she doesn't like the music. This is fair enough, but if you admit that the singing is spot on and you still don't like it, then don't blame the film for it as it's clearly just personal taste! Okay, Young may be pitch and note perfect, but he doesn't have the edge, depth, texture, warmth and humour of Valli. Playing the real Valli over the credits didn't help matters, but he was good enough for me which says a lot. Reviewers do your research! None of them seem to realise that this music is influential, innovative and wait for it, legendary. At the finish, Frankie and the others are inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, this should surely be a signifier as to how special their music has become.

The cast with Frankie Valli
I just want to get all Jersey on the lot of these so-called film critics and whup them, smack them upside their heads! Don't you worry about me, I won't. I feel I know not just Frankie Valli, The Four Seasons and the music better, which I didn't think possible, but New Jersey better. It seems Janet Evanovich in her Stephanie Plum books has it right. You can't help but love the tenacity, loyalty and ferocity. The things I didn't pick up from the stage musical, I understood when watching the film, such as why the songs on my parents' CD had a triangle or a circle next to them: it indicates which were Frankie Valli and which were the Four Seasons.


I just want to thank my parents for introducing me to the glorious music of Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons, which has lasted and will last a lifetime. Who loves you and will always love you for that and many things. I may go years without listening to the music, but I will instantly get a rush from hearing it and instinctively start singing along, word perfect; this music is embedded in my heart and the lyrics ingrained on my mind. It is indelible music. I got very emotional watching Jersey Boys, the songs touching something deep within me. I didn't cry because big girls don't cry, but I was close. I also want to thank my brothers for introducing me to indie music: blur and the like. I also want to forgive my friends for introducing me to the likes of Boyzone, who I'm still loyal to by the way.

You're ready now to watch Jersey Boys and I'm not going to start beggin' you to watch it, but you'd be missing out on a great experience and some great music and ain't that a shame.

Tuesday, 27 May 2014

Looking forward to the future

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This is a post that was first published on the AnxietyUK website as part of Mental Health Awareness Week. As they have now taken all the posts down, I thought it would be best to publish it on my blog, so it doesn't go to waste. I have edited it, added pretty images and explained a few bits in more detail, improving it basically!

Mental health problems are not a sign of weakness. They are sign of trying to remain strong for far too long

I'm 30. I started having panic attacks out of the blue when I was 16 and my life has been ruled by anxiety at varying levels ever since, almost half my lifetime. At its worst, I was having several panic attacks a day, incited by significant and insignificant events alike, most commonly films and TV, but always when in the house on my own. I contemplated suicide, briefly, once. I also developed an eating disorder.

Fear and anxiety

Anxiety didn't stop me finishing my A-levels, but it didn't help my grades and it did stop me going away to university. I vowed to never let it stop me from doing anything again. However, unconsciously it has. Anxiety has stopped me from finding a boyfriend, broken up friendships and delayed me in progressing at work. However it hasn't stopped me from moving out of home (at 25), holding down a job and finding my vocation in life, getting 2 university degrees, passing my driving test (5th time due to nerves), public speaking, teaching classes and doing adventurous things.

Fear doesn't control my life anymore

I had counselling at 17, but I decided to get over the anxiety myself, managed to and went to university in my hometown after a year out building my confidence. However the anxiety came out in different ways over the years: sporadic panic attacks at stressful times, eating problems, defensive behaviour in friendships, hermit-like tendencies, as well as the physical symptoms: heart palpitations, sweating, nausea, tremors, muscle tension, joint pain, lack of energy, depression and insomnia among many other things.

Anatomy of anxiety

Over the years I've tried traditional counselling, meditation, mindfulness, hypnotherapy, CBT, natural remedies and neurofeedback. I thought I had a handle on it after the latter, but after finishing my second degree in November 2013, distance learning while working full-time, I had a mini breakdown, ruining a well-earned holiday and freaking out my family. I stopped eating, sleeping and was having panic attacks all day every day. I was forced to take time off work to recover and decided, with my excellent doctor’s hands-off advice, to go back to traditional counselling.

Calvin and Hobbes sums it up

I had an epiphany-like breakthrough in the first session and have not looked back since. Being diagnosed, with vestibular neuritis (after a misdiagnosis of Menieres), or at least ruling out anything else it can be as it's undiagnosable, has helped too; it can be linked to anxiety. I feel becoming an auntie has done much to help as well, having someone to look after who takes you out of yourself and who loves you unconditionally.

Just breathe

I haven't felt this good in years, maybe before this all started at 16 years old. I’m happier, getting out more, writing again (my favourite thing in the entire world), enjoying life and everyone's saying how healthy I look. I am even considering finally finding a boyfriend, which is a huge thing for me. I wanted to share my story to show that you can go from the lowest of the low, feeling like there’s nowhere to go, to actually looking forward to the future.
Self control

Lastly, I want to share with you my favourite quote: Lao Tzu: “If you're depressed, you're living in the past. If you're anxious, you're living in the future. If you're at peace, you're living in the present.” I still have a long way to go, but I've finally found flashes of peace.

Monday, 17 March 2014

How to and how not to do your librarianship degree

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I have recently finished my MSc in librarianship, distance learning from Aberystwyth while working full-time. I tried to do it as quickly as possible, completing it in just more than two years. I did it the hard way, I always do things the hard way. I wouldn't recommend it as it damn near caused a nervous breakdown!

It occurred to me that I have a few other bits of advice to impart, some serious and some not so serious. For those of you contemplating doing a librarianship degree, distance learning whether from Aberystwyth or otherwise, this blog post may prove useful. For those of you currently doing your degree, I have broken it down into general MSc advice, as well as specific dissertation advice. And for those of you who have like me finished, you may chuckle in recognition. For everyone else, there's some pretty pictures of Aberystwyth.

My dissertation was on ebooks, looking at the attitudes of publishers, suppliers, faculty and librarians (the main influencers of the success of ebooks in academic libraries) rather than users; the University of Cambridge became a sort of case study. For those of you interested, here is my dissertation. It got a decent enough grade, but maybe reached too far and tried to encompass too much:
https://www.academia.edu/6393946/_Books_are_no_more_threatened_by_Kindle_than_stairs_by_elevators._The_impact_of_ebooks_on_printed_book_collections_in_University_of_Cambridge_libraries_Attitudes_of_librarians_faculty_and_suppliers

The statue on the hill

How not to do your MSc in librarianship

Here are my recommendations on what to do and what not to do while studying for your MSc/MA in librarianship. I did mine at Aberystwyth distance learning while working full-time. But I believe the lessons I learned are attributable to at least all distance learning courses, let alone beyond. These are hard-earned lessons through bitter experience.

DO NOT:

...spend time off. Work steadily and regularly.

...forget the people you met at study school. Regardless of how quickly they or you get through the course, they will be your benchmark, virtual friends and the people who understand what you are going through the most. If you don't meet these people at study school, or go to study school, find them in your local librarian community who have done/are doing the course. Cambridge is great for that. I won't list those that helped me, but they know who they are. I occasionally met up with another Cambridge librarian to talk about where we were at, rant about annoyances and generally catch up. Just knowing someone else is going through the same things as you is comforting and encouraging. It also helps with the distance side, not having lessons or lectures, no socialising with classmates and not having someone to talk to on a daily basis.

Me with the friends I made at the first study school
...on that note, avoid contacting the course leaders if you have any questions, no matter how small, via email or on the forums. Do use the forums and keep in touch virtually (social media is particularly useful. Facebook or Twitter via the #aberils hashtag) with classmates and other librarians, they are your most useful resource, not the electronic articles, textbooks and course packs.

...be scared of the blank page. It is a genuine phobia by the way: vacansopapurosophobia. Write something, anything. Once you start, you'll find it gets easier and better the more you write. You can always edit afterwards. There is no such thing as the perfect assignment, the perfect essay.


...stay at Pantycelyn, if you go to Aber. You will not get any sleep. The food is worse. The sleeping quarters are atrocious. The ablution facilities are bad bordering on dangerous. Trefloyne was the best place I stayed. But I also booked a lovely little hotel on the seafront for the last study school. However you'll need a car or try and catch the bus as the route to the library studies campus is up a steep hill.

...try to do it in 2 years unless you don't plan on having a life, enjoy hard work and have unshakeable determination.

...take on too much such as trying to solve long-standing mental problems, learning to drive and passing your test (5th time), while also trying to have a family life, going on holidays and holding down a full-time job.

...expect too much of yourself. You will run yourself ragged with the combined stress of family, work and study.

Castle hill
...make a mountain out of a molehill. Tackle the molehills, not the mountain.


DO:

...choose the right course for you. I don't know about Robert Gordon in Scotland, but with Northumbria you have to do it in 2 years and Aber you can do it in 2-5 years, which allows for much more flexibility. There are also part-time and full-time courses, of course.

...set yourself deadlines. Yes, there are marking deadlines, but they are almost impossible to stick to, particularly if you're a perfectionist like me. The only one that matters is the dissertation deadline, otherwise with all the hoops it has to jump through, you have to wait months for your mark to come back. You will set off with the best of intentions, especially after the study schools: to be the best you can be. But I can guarantee by the end of it, you will be saying "that will do."

Babe "That'll do, pig"
...heed the universe. If you keep coming up against barriers, frequently get writer's block or everything seems against you, the universe is trying to tell you something. Put it this way, if traffic lights keep changing to red just before you get to them, the universe is telling you to SLOW DOWN.

...expect to put on weight. I haven't ever weighed so much without medical intervention. This will happen specifically when you are writing the dissertation. It's from comfort eating, convenience foods and lack of sleep/stress.

...have a good work-life-studies balance. Get into a routine if possible. If you can't, do little and often. It's about regular work. Go with the flow. Whatever works.

Aberystwyth sunset
...remember life will always get in the way. Distance learning is tough as it encroaches on all areas of your life at all times, if you let it. It's not like a job which you can usually leave at your workplace; it comes home with you.

...realise procrastination is the enemy. Self-motivation is key and the hardest part about distance-learning especially. You will find any excuse not to work. There will always be one more chapter to read, one more episode to watch, one more chore to do. Do not give in.

The bluebell walk trip during the April study school
...take advantage of the opportunities offered at study school, such as the National Library visit and the bluebell wood walk in Aberystwyth.

...use Dropbox. It's invaluable. You can work wherever you are. All you need is an internet connection. You will always have an up-to-date version of your work. It will allow you to take advantage of any moment you have, any inspiration and any motivation. That said, make sure you keep a back-up as well.

Backup from Veronica Mars
 ...use Zotero. You can keep all your references and bibliography in one place. You can create folders to separate them according to each assignment or module. One click is all it takes in your internet browser (Firefox and Chrome at least) to save something. There is also a Word add-in so you can instantly add citations to your assignment and create a bibliography, using your chosen citation style. I always used APA. You will never lose a reference and you will never have to manually create a bibliography again.

...have good, supportive people around you, be they workmates, friends or family. They will act as cheerleaders, there to crack the whip and preferably to do the cooking, cleaning, washing etc. I didn't until my dissertation as me and my brother who I live with share all the chores, but you might be luckier. It means if you're on a roll, you can stay on a roll. Even in the depths of my dissertation I had to take time out to cook, clean and grocery shop as it was my turn.

...allow for downtime. Do something away from work, family and studies. I took refuge in books (paradoxically studying will reignite your love of reading, at least reading literature) and TV, as well as the aforementioned learning to drive and trying to solve my mental problems. For me it was particularly Glee, Once Upon a Time and How I Met Your Mother for the TV programmes, Anne of Green Gables, Jasper Fforde and Cornelia Funke for the books. Without downtime, you'll go mad. A special mention to Gilmore Girls who saved me after I finished.

The balloon I purloined from the 25th anniversary dinner
...have fun with it! Do things your own way. Do the modules that interest you as well as the ones that will further your career.

...lastly and simply, get enough sleep!

How not to do your dissertation

Here are my recommendations on what to do and what not to do while writing your dissertation for the librarianship MSc/MA.

DO NOT:

...do every kind of research under the sun: interviews, surveys, the literature review, statistical analysis. It takes a long time to create, arrange, do, analyse and write up everything.

Beautiful Aberystwyth
...try to finish it under a strict deadline. More so than any other of your assignments, you will find dissertation time frames are unreliable, intangible and ephemeral.

...take a week off to try and write the bulk of the dissertation, in a heat wave, in England, in the summer. As you know, that almost never happens. So your dedication to your work will flutter away into the sunshine.

...ignore a wrist problem. All that writing, typing and mouse work will have their toll on your poor old wrist. It will only get worse, so let it have a break. If you must continue, get appropriate wrist support.

From the funicular railway
...accidentally ignore your supervisor's advice, creating a hybrid structure of the social science and thematic model. They are there to advise you. They know what the markers are looking for, so you must do as they say, or argue your point with them and in your dissertation.

...get sick at the wrong time, just as you are on the final stint of your dissertation. Not only is it extremely inconvenient, it saps your strength, energy and motivation.

...falter at the last hurdle, thinking "yes! It's almost over". It ain't over until it's over.


...write down all the things you want to do afterwards, so you will have a list when you've finished. It only adds pressure and makes things harder, looking at all the much more fun and entertaining and useful things you could be doing. Your librarianship MA/MSc is useful and sometimes fun too.

DO:

...think about your dissertation right from the very beginning of your course. You can be gathering research as you go, thinking about the topic and how you will go about it. And yes, you do need to have at least a shortlist of topics before the dissertation study school and ideas about the research methods you could use.

...get as few people involved in your dissertation as possible, only who you need. It just adds unnecessary pressure.

...print off and proofread your dissertation in paper format. My dissertation went through 3 people before I printed it off. By reading it in print rather than on screen, I found a few typos, incidences of repetition and mistakes and then my proofreaders found far more. One of the markers still found a minor mistake, despite it having gone through 7 people other than me!

Camera obscura image of Aberystwyth
...ask someone who is not a librarian and knows nothing about your subject to do the proofreading. My parents were brilliant at finding grammar and punctuation errors, parts that needed more explaining and consistency mistakes.

...choose a topic you're interested in, know something about already and won't send you doolally after months of work. You want to be sane by the end!

...plan something for when you finish, don't just go on holiday. You will go from being really ridiculously active to nothing otherwise. There will be a crash, I guarantee it, so if you have a project to do, TV series to watch or anything really, it will mitigate the effects.

So that's my advice. Do with it what you will. If you want more advice, the excellent Library Wanderer has written more articulately on the same subject. N.B We both came up with the Babe reference separately. Good luck!